The truth of the matter is that what most people want they don't really get. For instance, I want to not have to worry about money. I have failed in that category. Or simple things like wishing that I am able to get that job I have always wanted, again no.
I'm not being cynical, I am simply stating the facts of what is happening. Let me express an event that I hold everyday of my life that has shaped me. I have been falsely accused of things that are no where close to my character. Things that I still find shocking and appalling. They are all false accusations, none were fortified with fact and could not be proven either way. At the time was going to a very liberal school. I was called up in font of a board to address the issues brought against me. Not only did I give my account, but I had others that backed my truthful story.
How was it handled?
The same way that most liberal, politically correct, childish institutions handle things. Blame men. Yes I was blamed, and even though I had others attesting to my innocence they still would not listen. This had many dire consequences attached to it that at the time I was not aware of. Hind sight being 20/20, I would have done things much differently. Most people would. You are a liar if you say that you would not change a thing from your past. Denial is not just a river in Egypt.
Because of this I was not able to go into the career that I had been planning on for the past 4 to 5 years of my life with my education in mind. What I have found is that the younger generation's happiness is based on goals accomplished and older generation’s happiness is based on comfort in one's life. Obviously I fell into the younger side of things and am still not happy to this day. I see myself a bitter, I was different before. I was happy, willing to help anyone, and do anything. Now I am reserve, not willing to joke much if at all. And I despise everyone and trust them as much as I would trust a snake.
So my experiences have changed me and not for the better. I feel damaged in some ways. I know that it is possible to get over them, but in someways I may not want to just to remember that people are some of the worst creatures in existence. Nuff said.
I'm glad you wrote about this,
ReplyDeleteI can relate to this on many levels